Although could physically run to my restroom with out pain---I tried not to go because I felt like I needed to watch the baby. I thought she might cry and need my attention right away! If you have ever been a pregnant women just undergone a c-section, you know that everyday tasks seem longer to accomplish.
I was so anxious to cook and enjoy a meal instead of feasting fast food or microwavable food. But I wouldn't dare go to the kitchen for more than five minutes. I just felt the need to constantly watch my baby. After talking it over with my love; I was advised to go on ahead and take the baby with me. This idea delighted me. And I did it. I took my baby everywhere I went, restroom, kitchen, office, outside--everywhere in my home.. She's always with me in the same room either in my arms or in a neat vibrating baby chair. Sure, I could use the baby monitor. But at first it it felt not-trustworthy and fake.
Not only that; but I pumped milk eight times a day, delivering 4-5 ounces each time. You can imagine that the connection with my little bundle of joy was rock solid.I had friends come over to visit me and they would ask when I was ready to hit the bars. My response to them was , "Oh no, I'm a mom now; I can't be doing that". My drinking days are over--no more. I can't give beer to a baby. I felt like she was my world now. I had so much love to give and felt the need to protect her at all costs.
I eventually grew out of this phase. And left the room with the baby monitor trusting that whatever I heard and saw was a true reflection of her state. It was pretty harsh finding out; I really couldn't do this if I wanted to keep relationships with other people.I wondered how many mothers went through this?
Written by: Sonia Garcia of Modern Girl Life